Stressed

I have less than 2 weeks left of maternity leave.  I am starting to attempt working from home.  It has its' ups and downs.  I really don't want to work when I can hold her or snuggle her or look at her or play with her or if she is awake.... I guess I really don't want to work.  But, nevertheless it has to be done.  I also find myself becoming very short-tempered with the boys (even more than usual) when I am trying to work.  I feel torn.  I need to work and get lessons written, but at the same time they are wanting my attention.  I can't work from an office, because that would cost me more daycare money and it would negate the fact that the hours I have with this job allow me to spend time with my kids.  Ugh.  I don't feel like a very good mommy when I am becoming frustrated with my kids because they want my attention.  I have noticed that the closer the end of my leave comes the more stressed I am becoming.  I am eating more, yelling more and getting irritated more.  It doesn't help that this also coincides with Chris' annual trip to Hawaii.  So, I am trying to do all of this stuff by myself.  The kids are even more needy because daddy is gone.  Trying to balance it all is proving to be stressful.  Carter was really aware this year about daddy leaving and was pretty sad.

 

On another note- since I have mere days left of my leave I am trying to accomplish all of the projects I had set for myself.

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Project #2-

 

 

Project #3-

 

 



 I also finished 2 shutterfly books.  1 that is for our entire family in 2012 and one for Kiera.  That was quite a time suck.  My goal is to create a book for each year, but I still need to create them all the way back to 2008!  I was also able to finally order the prints of our family pictures.

My next project for fun is to sew a couple bags that I found a cute pattern for.